It is one year since he left

but it feels like yesterday. Will it get easier at some point? Will xmas ever be enjoyable for our family? Some say I should let go, let his spirit rest.

I sincerely want to, but how can I when I have conversations with him almost everyday and he appears in my dreams too.

I ask myself day in day out whether I will ever be good enough, generous enough to those less fortunate than I am. The man I called Dad was all those things even on his death bed. In his will he made 2 requests of me.. be generours to those less fortuante than you, love and respect your mother.

I will do my best Dad, but it is a huge ASK